It's Totally an Eliott Smith Kinda Day

For the first time since I've been here I slept till I willingly woke. I've had my blinds down all day having that beautiful blue-ish light coming in through the bottom windows that don't get shut off. Now I look outside and its dark, and for once, my room didn't make me feel anxious or sad like it normally does. It actually kind of felt like a real room.

I went outside in a skirt and t-shirt, which reminded me of being home and wearing variations of this all summer. When I hit play on my ipod Elliott Smith came on and really, it did feel like an Elliott Smith kind of day.

Julia recommended the movie Angel-a a while back and I decided what the heck it seems beautiful maybe I'll get some inspiration or something? She said it gave her hope so that was even more reason to watch it. I need hope.
It really was a beautiful movie and really, it made me want an angel to slap me around and make me see things

" Look at your body, battered by the lack of love and trust. Don't you see it deserves a little care? Don't reject your wounded body. It's suffered in silence all this time. Tell your body how important it is, that it has its place. Give it what it deserves."

" One day, an angel came into my life. A magnificent woman who opened my eyes. And God knows, it's so good to have your eyes open."

Mixtape for your thoughts. Mine are kinda all over he place here but, lyrically, some of it makes sense. At least to me.
Download here

Last stop for a resolution
End of the line, is it confusion?
So go, go see what's there for you
Nothing new, nothing new for you to use
I've got no new act to amuse you
I've got no desire to use you, you know
But anything that I could do
Would never be good enough for you
If you can't help it then just leave it alone
Leave it alone
Yeah, just forget it
It's really easy
I believe I'll forget it too
Still you're keeping me around
'Til I finally drag us both down
Pulling feathers out of your hat
Yes I believe that's where it's at
You belong tagging along
And I belong in your zoo
So I wait for your confirmation

From Coast to Coast.

Oh Elliott I love you. Be mine?